Journal Entry: Sat Feb 8, 2014, 7:21 AM
Long time no see, peeps! As you might have noticed, I've been on a semi-hiatus since last summer or so, and I haven't uploaded any new stuff in half a year! Holy crap!
So yeah, I finally decided to try to get more active, and I thought changing my old username would be a nice new start. I've wanted to change it for some time now, and suddenly this one just randomly popped into my mind straight out of nowhere. Not regretting it so far~
I've got tons of stuff I need to finish, and hopefully I'll have something to upload soon. I've been going through nothing short of a crisis with my relationship to my art and my self-confidence, and that's saying something, since I've always had issues with my self-esteem and it's been pretty bad for the past four years, after getting diagnosed with depression.
For all these six months I haven't been able to finish a single one of my works, and trust me, it's not for lack of trying. I'm not going to count them, but I've started probably some dozens of works and abandoned every single one of them at some point, as I suddenly became unhappy with them. The same thing happened with all of those works. Just like that you suddenly never again want to look at the drawing you were so happily working on a minute ago. Some of those works were almost finished at the point I no longer wanted to work on them, and it's been really, really frustrating. I've felt like banging my head against the wall and ripping my hair out, but luckily I'm still in one piece. At times like this I'm really glad I have a therapist to talk about these kinds of things to.
On a more positive note, I feel like I've really improved at some areas during this time, and once I finally finish something and get to upload it, it's going to give me a great deal of new confidence, or at least that's what I hope.
Also, I've been thinking of joining Tumblr, and even though I'll probably have to wait until I've gotten some school related things out of the way, it would be really nice if you guys would comment on this journal with a link of your blog, in case you have one, so I can follow you once I get my own (: Or you can note me, if you'd prefer that.
Hopefully you'll hear from me soon, and I from you! Maybe things will get better from now on.